The environment is so good for sleeping, the air-con is cold, the office is quiet. Nearly is like bedtime atmosphere, i can just close my eyes and fall into deep sleep. But nah, i can't. What if somebody walk by and saw me sleeping, what impression am i gonna leave with him/her. Very much, this is the reason why i decided to write something on blog. It's helps to keep me awake. The keyboard typing sound may fake that I'm really working hard. Keep my eyes open. Quickly let the hours pass by. So i can get home and get a good rest.
I'm not always like that. Just that I'm lazy to do the task assign to me. I'm doing test script for web testing. It is kinda, like, will take my half-hours or one hours to complete one script. I'm just plain lazy for today.
If you are so lazy to talk to anyone how you feel, talk to a computer. At least it won't complain that you are long-winded. The existence of this blog has been for years. Ever since last few years? It uses to be my frustration wall. Whenever I'm frustrated, i will post all my thoughts here. Now i hope to make it to good use. I will post whatever i want, whether is it some deep thoughts or whether is it kinda related to god post. i hope to make my space beautiful. The blog skin fill with my own style. White + Black + some very nice font. But i need some time to do that, it is not that easy. All the java-script tags and css. etc. Needa to talk time to understand it.
In order to make readers interested to read my blog, i really need to put in some effort. Initially i thought to use this blog as a pure christian blog, meaning, it will be posts about Christ. But think again, why not make it a bit more personal? Yes. Make it a bit more personal.
You might find the way i talk interesting, i will keep on looping my topics until i got nothing to say about it. i feel that blog is something very personal, it shouldn't be commercialize in some sense when people will post what reader might be interested to read. where grammar are well taken care of. of course to a certain sense, if a student is reading your sentence, you might disproved his/her English. but, why fret about so much right? because it is your style, you shouldn't care. it is the only space when you can pour out your anything and everything.
sometimes i might just say, human self-consciousness sucks, when every action is executed with self-consciousness. is like, you can't do the things that you always do alone, in front everyone. this previous sentence is a bit fragment, i shall rephrase it again. the usual things that you do it at home, you can't do it outside.
Sometimes when the loud music blasted in my earpiece, i just wanna shake my body off and dance on the train. but i can't, so i do it with small movement. Now it comes to a point, is it your own under-lying self confident? maybe yes, maybe no. No is because i know if i dance that out, the society will find it unacceptable. Thus human always do things that are largely acceptable by the society. i feel so, with no evident for back-up. no statistics. counting down and down.
i will be really happy if people is reading my post and really understand my thoughts. sometimes i really like to fall in deep thoughts to thinking of what other people is not thinking about. analyze of human behavior or behavior of anything? maybe very much of that.
Counting down, its 5.16pm. 15 mins more and i will be off work. at least i accomplished the mission of not falling asleep! i shall continue later. shall post this blog url on facebook. See whoever that is interested in my life might read it. Of course very blogger wants their blog to be read.
Hi danny. You should be a social scientist, perhaps. =]
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