Christian songs play from my speakers,sent peace to my heart. Enjoy every moment right now. never really used com for such long hours ever since army. I mean throughout the late night. I also thought going out will be better than staying at home. But actually not, staying home is good, as long as im doing the things i enjoy. 7-8 weeks to passing out parade of my training day at SAF BMTC(Basic Military Training Centre). What's the in thing in there. IPPT.(Individual Physical Proficency Test) to test the whether every soldier fittness level is up to standard. Basically i spent 2 months in tekong procrastinating. Always complain, not working hard, not training hard, not sowing into my training to pass IPPT. After the two months has past. Then i wake up from my deep sleep of procrastination. Different people wake up at different time, just that my time of wake up is a bit challenging. But, as long as i pass ippt time before i pass out from bmtc, everything would be fine. National Service after all is about the physical fitness of every individual soldier. No longer a Zero Fighter,Zero Fighter, A term to define one who can't pull a pull-up. A begin to accept the fact that i failed in these(shuttle run, Pull-up,Standing board jump), there isn't other way out except training for it. You reap what you sow. Very true in physical fitness term. Current update: Pull-up 2,SBJ 198,Shuttle run 11.4, 2.4 Run 10.54, Sit up 45. I hope to improve on shuttle run and sbj and pull up on the next coming ippt this week. have to run practice the technique when there time in there. May i work to pay off. SBJ are the hardest for me right now.=.=. used to be pull-up, next mile stone to conquer. need a miracle in my life. God + Hardwork= Results. Self-define this term for my motivation. ha!. Enough of ippt stuff.
Went Church today, Church is my motivation. Always go back to my first love. Stress from NS has pull me away from God for a while. But when i go back to him, I'm really better off. He's there for me to rely on, listen to my pain and problems. Doing the defining work when i'm resting. Church sermon are always relative to my circumstance, appreciate that a lot. Rejoice in the name of the Lord, For He conquer the world. Not a bible quote,Self-typed. But, trying to say, God is in hand for all the things we are going through. Rely on him for a greater strength.
Going through praise and worship in the house of Lord this morning, Suddenly got a sudden touch of love. The past image of me go through my mind, Secondary 3, Poly years.With God defining plan to get me get back to him. Zhen Zhao started telling me about God and Jesus when i saw in secondary 3. After going church for quite sometime, i asked him one question, "why do you choose to spread the gospel to me when i saw in sec 3?" He answered"Because i feel that you a person with no opinion, always follow what people says". It's true, I'm afraid of voicing out. Fearful of voicing in the past. i soon backslided away from God, When i went to poly, Teckloon, my buddy in poly. CHC member, We click off with this common ground of going to City Harvest Church. Time files, He started asking me why i backslided away from God. Again and again, he always correct my thoughts. Because i didn't read the bible. Don't really understand what church members are doing. Doubtful of the existence of God etc. All the question that a noobie will wondered and not understand. After several times of trying to get me back to God, Teck Loon wanted to give up, But God again and again asked him to persist on. Obedience to God, He persisted on. He convinced me of all my doubt. i give in and give my effort to stay in church. This time, 2010 i went back, all the way till now. N312, my cellgrp. Well, once in a while, i will get wild by not attending church service, but deep down. I know and i know, He is the savior of the world, the one who i rely on, the creator of all things in life. And i will get back to him. Tears dropped down when i thought of all these. If not for God, Where would i have been. i seriously don't know, Northlight school perhaps. I might have failed my N level and O level. Still remember His faithfulness. Changhan taught me to pray when i study for my paper and before i start doing my papers, i did that for my N and O level. Things went well, Got into Poly. Poly again, During my Final year project, I prayed to God for a breakthrough in programming, Things went well again. This time in NS, i rely on him by sending prayer and connecting with him, I believe and believe its gonna be well again. He is like teaching me life lesson. "Rely on Me and I will see you through" I seriously thank God for this magnificient plan for me to get me back to him. Greatful forever. And Zhen Zhao and Teck Loon. I looked up to them as my leader in life. My example. Encouraging whenever i thought of them when i'm in trouble. Life Story alright. Thank you God, Jesus, Holy Spirit!
time to sleep!
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