In the midst of everybody dreams

Originally, I set my NS goals to be able to pass IPPT test. Throughout struggles, still unable to do it, due to my irregular pull-up regime. 3 more months to go, 3 weeks to end of physical training phrase. I want to be able to pull up. Need to start this pull up regime daily. Meaning to pull the bar before I go sleep everyday. I didn't have dreams for OCS. I have a dream to go military police. The drill aspect of military police. Being officer is higher pay, but really not my forte. I'm better follower than leader. I seriously a bit gone. My mind is full with so many pressure. Pressure to pull my first pull up, pressure to pass my ippt. Pressure to book out on time when all ippt passes book out. A desire to become a drill subject method expert. But to all my desire, I got to pass my ippt. To have a stand in the platoon, of course I have to pass my ippt first. To let the people see, they can do it, I can do it. But seriously, another bit of my inner self is a damn slacker. The one which always procrastinate, "aiya, never mind la, next time then do", "very tired leh, next time la, i just done some training earlier, trained hard enough" bits of procrastination is killing enough. I really got to use some very powerful reason to back up all these procrastination I'm facing whenever I want to work hard. Weihong and Zhen Zhao inspired me a lot. They work really hard. Pushing themselves to the limit. Where to muscle intention go up, when their arms have totally no strength, then they give in. Mind over body. Mine is the other way round. Body over mind. physical fitness? It's isn't easy. But if I were to have a strong mind to conquer my body. I would really success. Whenever I feel like giving up, I always thought about aaron giving me the encouragement in npcc times. "Down, 1 more only, hang on only!" he would stretch out his legs to support my falling leg. My buddy, my life. Army days made me remember this precious moment which I forgotten long time ago. If Aaron is there when I'm hanging on the pull up bar, "he would be shouting, go up one more!" I eventually would push and go it up. Now I would need to find my this buddy in army. The one who would encourage me when I'm falling. Those moments.

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