Exercising

Exercising is a very amazing activity. Although I failed my ippt, but miracles-sly I feel damn good and awesome about myself. It's seem that the big problem that i worry seem much much smaller. Feel damn great about it. Can't remember exactly where I heard it, from church or friend. Exercising release a great amount of endorphin in the brain that will make one feels good. Such a good way to release stress. While on my way back to company line, I was thinking to myself, next time I will get a wife who loves to run. Then we can keep fit and stay healthy and bond together. National Service successfully build up my running foundation. I can run pretty well with my breathing technique. Much of a momentum that's keeping the run until its reaches the good. And the amazing thing is when I feel good, started to change my inwards feeling, resulted in a happy outwards expression. And my sections mates saying that I have the look of a pervert, that kind of uncle that will sit in coffees hop in the future and drink beer plus a beer belly. Yeah. Of course not. I often see myself as a successful person, in a formal attire and a briefcase with a nice hair, smiling. It's like a poster in my hardcore memory. Regards ippt. I think people will think that I'm a NATO, No Action, Talk Only. After several PC's interview, I kept giving assurance that I will try my best, but ended up in little result or no improvement. Yah. Sad much. But still stay positive. I'm too positive in some sense maybe. Maybe when the clock strike 12 then I will start to wake up and work my ass off. I really really want, but but but. That kind of me. Isn't attractive at all. Girls often look for stable man of words of promise, capable etc. I'm capable, but not in the physical way yet! I hate to say not in a physical way, because if other people can, I can. I often have this inner struggles when I want to push myself. The solution? Don't think so much and just do. Do it with a goal and a motivation of doing it for my family, giving my best to them. I express myself like a girl isn't it? I feel so. But don't care much. The other side of me. Thank you My God Head, 3 in One. Holy Spirit, Father, God.

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